So, I went to the store today to get Junior some new shoes. He has fat feet and it is very hard to find something that doesn't squish his feet and isn't so long that he trips all over his shoes when he walks. While at the store, I saw TONS of stuff that I loved for me but couldn't buy because we don't have the money.
We're a single income family and I have to constantly put things back that I want otherwise I will feel mega-mommy guilt for not having spent to money on the kiddies.
Of course, my messed up hormones got me all upset and this initiated a whole talk with Daniel.
I love my man. I love my children more than air. I have a roof over my head and I have food in my tummy. But there are still things I want and not being able to have them frustrates me.
Daniel thinks I spend too much time on facebook reading about how wonderful my friends say their lives are. Truth is I get reminded sometimes of the things I want and not being able to get what I want frustrates me. I'm not saying I want a house on a hill or all the finest clothes and newest gadgets, I'm not saying I want a million dollars. I just want to be comfortable and secure in my life.
Yes, the entire country is having a hard time right now, but does that mean I should just sit back and take it?
Don't get me wrong, Daniel takes very good care of me and I wish I could get a job to help him out and take some of the burden off of his shoulders.
I know a lot of my grief I cause myself with my impatience and need for instant gratification. I guess part of it is not focusing enough on what I have instead of what I want.
I'm really NOT a spoiled brat. Promise!
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